Sunday, October 18, 2009

Hey, Mr. Bad Guy...

I have decided to write a series of posts directly to the bad guys in Cupcake's life. I have a lot of unprocessed feelings about the individuals who hurt my daughter. I know her bad guys are not reading this. Most likely, they don't even speak English. I'm doing this as a way of working through my feelings. I must get them down on "paper" and out of my system. Maybe a real-life bad guy will read this, come to his senses, see the damage he has done, repent, and find healing. Maybe I can help other moms and dads who are working through these same issues. Maybe I just need to vent.

In any case, it will not be pretty at times....like tonight.


Hey Mr. Bad Guy,

Sometimes, I hate your guts.

Sometimes, I want you to suffer at the hands of someone who is bigger than you.

Sometimes, I'm glad you live in a far away country. If you lived here, I may be tempted to hunt you down and destroy you.

Sometimes, I hope God takes you out, so you won't hurt any more kids.

Sometimes, I pray for your salvation, so your life might be redeemed. I would hate for anyone to meet God with that kind of guilt on their heads.

Sometimes, I weep for you. You are putty in Satan's hands.

Sometimes, I feel sorry for you. You were probably a victim yourself.

However, that does not excuse what you did to my little girl. There is no excuse for that.

Sincerely,
Mamita

4 comments:

Dawn said...

Amen.

Same here.

Laurie said...

Amen here too...

Gayle said...

Get it out, sister! We "feel" your pain and understand it to. Amen here, three!

Katie said...

Prayers and hugs for you !!